So I made a myspace a LONG time ago, but Ive never used it. So the past week I started using it, and while Im not sure why, it has become INSANELY addictive. I dont even really post anything like THIS on myspace, but things like putting videos and picture albulms are easier to access. Ive also been able to find massive amounts of people, some who I havent talked to in literally years. Xanga cant do that. But Ive been with Xanga for two years now and figure I'll still keep this, and use it just as much. For those of you who helped me through last weekend with my dad, thank you so much. He is recovering nicely and is back in Oklahoma. While he IS out of the danger zone, he is having to be extra careful and is requiring constant checkups with his doctor.

im leaving town tonight, my dad is in a kansas city hospital throwing up blood, i might be back saturday but i dont know for sure. if anybody believes ina higher power, my family could use your help.

The official preview for this new bond film has been released and honestly, after viewing this trailer I have added to the top of my site, I am exhausted. This has now become my most anticipated film to come out this year and I dont even really care all that much about bond films. I hope everyone has a safe September 11, let us not forget those who died, and let us not forget how lucky we are to be here.

Ill lay it out there, I miss having a girlfriend, being in a relationship.  Not missing my last girlfriend or that relationship, just being in one, having somebody there. It sucks because my compatibility shoots off the fucking chart when I'm at the retreat, and my two options with that are, 1. have a relationship with someone I see five days a year(boo long distance relationship, hurray beer!) or 2.move to the west coast where most everybody im friends with live, which, while possible, wouldnt happen for at least 1-3 years. Even Christina Pearson, founder of TLC told me in our annual heart to heart talk this year, "I think it would be fabulous for you to find someone at the retreats", as she did with her husband. I tried the whole stupid college drinking sleeping around thing, and I refuse to go down that path ever again. I will not, I CANNOT, lower myself to that which so many I have known have fallen to. Believe it or not, but I have been mocked by trying to make myself a better person. All I want, is a good woman, someone who wont cheat, who values what a relationship means. Is there anybody out there?

Famed adventurer, environmentalist and TV personality Steve Irwin, known around the world as the "Crocodile Hunter," was killed Monday by a stingray during a diving expedition off the coast of Queensland, Australia; he was 44. According to initial reports, Irwin had been filming a documentary on the Great Barrier Reef, and was diving near Low Isles Reef, about 1,260 miles north of Queensland capital Brisbane. Irwin was felled by a stingray barb through his chest, and his crew immediately called authorities for medical treatment, but Irwin was dead before an emergency helicopter arrived on the scene. The son of naturalists, Irwin spent his whole life around animals, and was raised at the Queensland Reptile and Fauna Park. He quickly grew into an animal expert, with a specialty in reptiles, and was catching crocodiles by the age of 9; later, he spearheaded Australia's crocodile relocation program, capturing the animals from populated areas and either returning them to their natural environment or raising them in the Queensland Park. In 1991, Irwin took over the running of the park, which was renamed the Australian Zoo (and would become a major tourist destination), and a year later he married his wife Terri, with whom he would have two children. The footage from their crocodile-trapping honeymoon was later fashioned into the first episode of his TV series Crocodile Hunter, and Irwin was catapulted to instant worldwide fame, with his enthusiastic nature, fearless animal acumen, and his trademark phrase, "Crikey!" Irwin turned his television success into a feature film, 2002's The Crocodile Hunter: Collision Course, and in addition to his reptile passions, was an avid promoter of Australian tourism, including the recent Australia-Los Angeles campaign "G'Day LA!" In 2004, Irwin suffered one of his few bouts of negative publicity, when he fed a crocodile with one hand while holding his infant son with the other. Coming soon after the Michael Jackson "baby dangling" incident, Irwin was roundly drubbed by press reports, though he firmly insisted he was in control of the entire situation and his son was never in danger. In recent years, Irwin campaigned against wildlife hunts in Australia, specifically crocodile safaris