Loaded the photos from the retreat last night and Joe and I wrote a short script about the guy(dont even know if it WAS a guy) who wrote the song We Belong by Pat Benetar, itll be called "Love, Pat." If it goes the way it should, itll be a laugh. Im writing the script Road of Echoes, about the impact september 11 had on high school students, part of me wants to do this just because Ive been itching to get it done the last three years, another part of me wants to just to piss the people off who think its too soon to be making september 11 movies. Either way it still doesnt change the fact that I miss everyone from the retreat, the first two weeks or so back from it are the most difficult, Im especially missing Savannah and Paxton, those girls are the closest thing Ive had to sisters, and Jena, Katie, the amazing Mandi Line and Rossellina, and definately Kayley. Ive started losing weight, which is cool cuz I actually found a way to do it, and the guy who opened that door was none other than Joe Shrum, he took me grocery shopping and pretty much did it all for me, loading my cart up with stuff he knew was healthy and good and all that shit, plus doing a couple of miles in the morning doesnt hurt either.but ive dropped 8 pounds, and I havent had soda in my system for a couple of weeks now. So we'll see how long I can keep this up.

I'm feeling nothing
But all alone
Just missing someone
I don't even know
But until I find them
I'll wait patiently
Just feeling nothing
Inside of me

And where are you baby
Where can you be
Why aren't you here
Loving me
'Cause I won't to kiss you
And make you feel right
I want to lay with you
all through the night

And so I wait
For that glorious day
When the one I dream of
Comes my way
But until I find them
I'll wait patiently
Just feeling nothing
Inside of me

And I want to feel passion
I want to feel pain
I want to weep at the sound of your name
Come make me laugh
Come make me cry
Just make me feel
Alive

So everybodys back in Stillwater or whatever, and the interesting thing is the realization that most of them didnt give me the time of fuckin day this summer. So fuck em, I spent the last week in Cali again, the retreat was...the best experience of my life. To see my old friends, my new friends, my inspirations. To see Kayley after four years, we would write each other and one day she dropped off the map, and when I couldnt get a hold of her or her mom, with the demons she was facing at the time I thought she had...well. Then she dropped back in like a nuclear bomb, it was amazing. The center had so much energy flowing through it, to see the fog roll in below us in the red wood valley and then cover and surround us was a trip in itself. Every time I go to California, whether Im driving through it or visiting or whatever, my adrenaline rushes, I become so happy like in a fantastic dream. So, school in the spring, the parents will pay the rent, and eventually Im out. I have officially caught the fever of wanting to get out of Oklahoma. Me and the girls had a good laugh about the fact that Oklahoma doesnt have mountains or deserts or snow storms, yet for some reason its the hardest place on the planet to escape.

I heard it's cold out, but her popsicle melts
She's in the bathroom, she pleasures herself
Says I'm a bad man, she's locking me out
It's cause of these things, it's cause of these things

I just saw previews for two films coming out this year. I know I made that top ten list already, but these two, one looks just wonderful, the other....the performance of the lead. The first being Children of Men starring Clive Owen, Julianne Moore and Michael Caine. It is about the next generation of humans from now, our children. For one reason or another, women can no longer carry children, and after this generation dies, the human race will be no more. Clive Owen gets pulled into a shocking discovery by an old friend(julianne moore): a woman has somehow managed to concieve. Clive and Julianne along with some freedom fighter type folks must get this girl safely across the border into some country not revealed by the trailer, where she will be safe and the child delivered safely into the world. The second film is called Edmond starring William H. Macy, like I said, not the movie but his performance that counts here, it looks like the best performance of the year, if not his entire career. He plays a stressed out businessman who decides to just let go and leaves his wife?, sleeps with some righteously beautiful babes(Mena Suvari and Denise Richards), and when he goes home with a third woman(Julia Stiles) he ends up killing her, most likely accidentally in some sort of rage. But the rest of the film is how he deals with this and most likely is busted by the police, but the movie looks fucking awesome, and the screenwriter is David Mamet(Hannibal,Ronin, and most importantly The Untouchables).

EDMOND

CHILDREN OF MEN

Man I still havent seen world trade center, I leave next wednesday for this years retreat, so im pumped about that. I think I wrote the same thing this time last year, the retreat is like a booster shot to get me through the next year. This year a Buddhist monestary, and since its in the coastal region its gonna be like, 50 degrees at night, fog in the morning and evening, its gonna be beautiful. Theres a new Jason Statham movie coming out called Crank, or as Marisa likes to put it, Transporter 3 + Speed 3. I am looking forward to the film, and have a feeling itll be this years "Running Scared", or, "A Movie That Looks Like It Will Be Rediculous and Suck but Will Actually be GOOD and Doug Will BUY IT LATER". Bruising still on my cheek, and on my arm where they stuck me when they put me to sleep, but im pretty much healed.

still on pain killers, and this morning i got on my computer to find that while i was on them last night, i have downloaded ALOT of music, ranging from ray charles to muse. i dont even remember downloading these songs, but im not complaining because i am currently listening to them all.

<----wisdom teeth pulled, a world of pain and its killers

Top ten movies i want to see this fall in no order except number 1

THE PRESTIGE

THE SCIENCE OF SLEEP

I really want to go to see A Prairie Home Companion, shown above in St. Paul Minnesota. If you go to the official website, Garrison Keillor and the gang have tickets available for this season up to I believe November.  Who wants to make a road trip to Minnesota with me to see G.K.?

Also, anybody who wants to go see World Trade Center on Wednesday in the evening, let me know, cuz...Im not going by myself.

all i gotta say is enjoy!

Dusty-Woody Harrelson
Lefty-John C. Rielly

The blind man’s seeing eye dog
Pissed on the blind man’s shoe
The blind man said, “Here, Rover, here’s a piece of beef for you.”
His wife said, “Don’t reward him, you can’t just let that pass!”
The blind man said, “I gotta find his mouth so I can kick him in the a**!”

Bad jokes, Lord, I love them
Bad jokes, can’t get enough of ‘em
Oo-oo-oo-ee bad jokes for me

You got one, Dusty?

I got one, Lefty

Let’s hear it

When God created woman
He gave her not two breasts, but three
When the middle one got in the way
God performed a surgery
Woman stood before God
With the middle breast in hand
Said, “What do we do with the useless boob?”
And God created man

Bad jokes, Lord I love them
Bad jokes, can’t get enough of ‘em
Oo-oo-oo-ee bad jokes for me

Gramps just turned 80 the other day
And everybody was there
And he was dressed up in a brand new suit
Sittin’ in his big armchair
When a beautiful young, naked woman
Stood up in front of the group
She offered Gramps some super sex
And he said, “I’ll take the soup!”

Bad jokes, Lord, I love them
Bad jokes, can’t get enough of ‘em
Oo-oo-oo-ee bad jokes for me

You ready for another one?

Yeah! Lay it on me…

Olie (spelling?) went to the neighborhood dance
And he won the big door prize
It was a toilet brush and he took it home
And the next week one of the guys
Said, “Olie how’s that toilet brush,
The one you won from the neighbors?”
Olie said, “Well, it works pretty good
But I prefer toilet paper!”

Bad jokes, Lord, I love them
Bad jokes, can’t get enough of ‘em
Oo-oo-oo-ee bad jokes for me

Farmer had a champion bull
That bred 200 times a year
The Farmer’s wife said,
“200 times, isn’t that wonderful dear?
Maybe you oughta watch him
Maybe he’ll show ya how.”
The farmer said, “He’s a heckuva bull,
But it wasn’t all with the same cow!”

Bad jokes, Lord, I love them
Bad jokes, can’t get enough of ‘em
Oo-oo-oo-ee bad jokes for me

You got another one, Dusty?

Actually, I do…

Did you hear about the Viagra shipment that got stolen?

No! Who do they think did it?

Well, they don’t know, but they are on the lookout for hardened criminals.

You got another one?

I got another one, Lefty…

Sven said to his friend, “Oh, I think my wife died.”
His friend said, “Well, what do you mean, you ‘think’?”
“Well, the sex is still the same, but the dishes are stacking up…”

Hey, Dusty!

Yeah, Lefty?

Did you know that diarrhea was is hereditary?

No, I didn’t…

Yeah…it runs in your jeans

Hey, uh, Lefty!

Yeah, go ahead…

Why do they call it PMS?

PMS? Well, I don’t know, why?

‘Cause ‘Mad Cow’ was already taken

Hey, Dusty!

Yeah, Lefty?

What do you get when you cross Holy Water with Castor Oil?

I don’t know, Lefty, what do you get?

A religious movement…

Hey, uh, hey Lefty, what did the elephant say to the naked man?

What’d he say?

It’s cute, but can you really breath through that thing?

Bad jokes, Lord, I love them
Bad jokes, can’t get enough of ‘em
Oo-oo-oo-ee bad jokes for me

Bad jokes, man, I love them
Bad jokes, can’t get enough of ‘em
Oo-oo-oo-ee bad jokes for me

Once again, another close friend of mine has passed, and I buried my friend today. People from literally all corners of the country were there to be with her as she was laid to rest. Unfortunately it didnt hit until about the middle of the day while I was working. She was a good person, the kind of person I inspire to be.

LIGHTER NOTE: anyone wanting to see pictures of my money winning lapdance can do so at http://www.flickr.com/photos/jackscoresby